Testing 1,2,3 … is this mike on?

Climbing up hills can be hard work … especially when those hills are figurative. I have fallen into a time in which I seem to be making little progress in ANYTHING I do, which is very disheartening. I started of this year with all sorts of fresh ideas, that were exciting and seemed to have the backing of peanut galleries everywhere. But somewhere along the way, if feels like all the peanuts have found better steakhouse floors to hang about in, and my belief in my ability to achieve most of these projects is severely lacking. I am sure part of it is the time of year, and people are just plain busy, but a distinct lack of feedback and forward progress on all levels does take the air out of my balloons.

Fortunately, I am still an Idiot.

So after another few weeks of banging my head into walls and wondering what the hell I am doing with my life, I am now again ready to blow up my balloons. Not that I have any helium to work with, but I AM full of hot air. So status of things so far … I have slacked in my exercise and … well just about all preparation aspects of this trip. My business to help raise funds has gotten off to a fast start. Unfortunately the horse I am riding is easily confused and it seems to have run the wrong way on the track altogether. My attempts to interest others in this project seem to be falling on deaf ears … or my mike simply does not work. I can definitely say, without ANY doubts whatsoever, that I may or may not have someone hiking with me.

In other words everything is as expected … for a guy who’s idea of planning for the future is wondering about what snack he will eat in the next five minutes.

Being the man that I am though, it is far too early to call it quits. I have always been one who lived by the seat of my pants, no matter how torn they may be. So I will keep plugging along, even if at the moment I have no idea what direction to go in. That is what compasses are for right? By the way, does anyone have a compass?

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So my plan at the moment:

  1. Bang my head against some more walls. Maybe I will finally shake SOMETHING loose.
  2. Keep pretending I know anything about running a business. Maybe I will actually sell SOMETHING.
  3. Keep writing things on various blogs in the hope that they will accidentally cross someone’s path who is really bored and might be able to help me in anyway (even if it be only psychologically).
  4. Stop using a whole slew of unrelated metaphors and images. Banging heads against walls DOES have certain unhealthy results.
  5. Keep on plugging. That’s what I do best.

Just wanted to give a shout out in case anyone was still listening. Ya never know. This crazy idea, like all my others, may turn into something yet. But only if I keep running with it (even if it is more like a wounded crawl at the moment).