adjective: having or showing the capacity to become or develop into something in the future.

noun: latent qualities or abilities that may be developed and lead to future success or usefulness.

In physics, potential refers to the amount of work necessary to bring something from A to B, A and B defined by what you are measuring. (This is a very LOOSE definition).

THE CHALLENGE:

Anyone observing humanity will note that humans have GREAT potential. This sounds like a positive trait until we look more closely at this potential. Humans have a great capacity to create. We have a limitless imagination, which allows us to constantly break beyond limits that were previously considered inviolate. This is a good thing. However we have an equal capacity to destroy, with the same backing of that limitless imagination.

Our potential can be quite dangerous.

Having potential and converting that potential to something of practical value are two different things. Physically, potential is how much work is needed to achieve a specific goal, but until that work is applied, the goal remains nothing more than a possibility. This applies to the human condition as well; we have great potential both for the good and the not so good, but unless we put the work in that potential will never really mean anything to ourselves and our world. If, and how, we use our potential is a matter of choice. We each have to decide if we are WILLING to do the best we can do. We also have the choice of HOW we use our abilities. Until we make those choices, our potential will remain in the realm of the imagination.

The HOW choice is often the most difficult one, especially when it comes to who benefits. This is the issue that really divides us. On one side we have those who think that all our actions should ultimately benefit ourselves … the rest of humanity … and even the world … be damned. The flip side of this is those who believe that the needs of the many far surpass the needs of the few or the one, and that should guide our actions. The ongoing conflict in our world is a direct result of these deferring extremes.

Unfortunately, those who lean towards selfishness tend to run the show for one simple reason  … they are willing to do what is necessary to achieve their goals. To such people, compassion is a weakness. Those who work for the many are driven by compassion, which means there are actions they simply will not take for success. How can someone who has moral limits actually stop someone who will do anything that meets their needs?

That is the uphill battle that those who seek a compassionate world continually face. Sometimes the climb can seem so difficult as to be not worth the effort.

THE SOLUTION:

I don’t have a specific answer to the above question. The dark turn humanity has taken in recent years damaged my own resolve. I failed to live up to my OWN potential of late, which does no one any good. How do we fight for compassion when those who have none are in charge; when a majority of people WILLINGLY let such people make choices for them because it is so much easier than actually making their own choices? Thus this project, and others I have started, aimlessly drifted.

Until I was reminded that the only way to FIND a solution is to focus on finding solutions. If we focus on the problem we will never get anywhere. Not doing anything is as good as admitting defeat. The heartless will always win if the compassionate simply roll over and let them. If we want the world to become a more compassionate one, we have to continually remind people WHAT compassion is. But we have to also remind OURSELVES that being compassionate does NOT mean letting others with no limits do as they will. Oppression can only exist if the oppressed let it. The same applies to tyrannical rule. We have to recognize that sometimes we must do what is necessary ourselves. Hoping someone who has no compassion will suddenly come into it if we ask enough times is nothing more than naiveté. We have to recognize that SOMETIMES we may have to do things that we do not like to get anywhere. But we also need to remember such choices should always be a LAST resort.

That said, there are a few things we can focus on:

• Cooperation – the best chance to overcome selfish individuals who have a strong power base is COOPERATION. They only have a strong power base because others support them. Therefore we have to support each other in opposition. If we create a larger and stronger compassion based community than change WILL happen.
• Do what you can do – when we constantly find the ‘bad’ guy winning, it is easy to feel that our efforts are wasted, so why bother. The simple truth is that nothing can be achieved if not at least ATTEMPTED. Don’t focus on what we can not do, but rather on what we CAN do.
• Be flexible – don’t lock on one path. If one thing does not seem to work, maybe we need to approach it from a different angle. Don’t give up. Just rethink.
• Educate, don’t pontificate – the only way to teach someone who does not want to be taught is to demonstrate. Don’t try to convince someone who does not want to be convinced. Just show them they are wrong. Either they will open their eyes, or they will suffer the consequences of their own willful blindness. Either way, don’t waste your energy on them.

When darkness threatens, a single candle will provide light. A single candle can also light other candles. If enough candles are lit, the darkness will no longer be there.

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The seeds for a Marketplace have already been planted, but what about a form of currency for the nation? That seed has now too been planted, in the form of a Time Bank . So what is a Time Bank?

Essentially, the goal is to step away from this dependency on money to achieve everything. Money is a useful tool, but it is not the ONLY tool, and should not be the ultimate determining factor in the feasibility of a project … let alone a decider of the worth of the project’s participants. The seed that has been planted is to create a barter economy, with the primary unit of exchange being time rather than money. Ultimately, someone using their time for another is the most valuable resource there is. Our Time Bank is starting with a unit called service minutes, which is just what it sounds like. You can earn and spend time as you will, to help others; to get help from others. The Bank is very simple at the moment, but it will grow into a fully functional economy if we all work together to make it happen. As it grows, other forms of currency will no doubt be needed (including money) and created, with appropriate exchange rates to keep the value of the service/product. The key here is that whatever currency we choose … it is a means to an end … not the end itself. The current bank is not a definitive guide to worth, but rather an incentive to cooperation. It is about helping each other by providing an avenue to do it. This does not mean we can’t cooperate outside this system, nor does it mean we can’t work out other forms of cooperation outside the system. It is just a tool for those who need it. One can earn service minutes just by being an active member of the community. Here is a list of ways to earn by just using the site:[/vc_column_text][vc_row_inner][vc_column_inner width=”1/2″][vc_column_text]

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PAX Nation can only work if people get involved. The growth of the nation will ensure the growth of its citizens (as any healthy society should). So by using the resources available here, your will grow as well. I encourage everyone to participate and become active citizens. Cooperation is the ONLY way we will truly effect change in this world. Cooperation is also the core of the PAX Nation ideology and dream.[/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space][vc_cta h2=”” h4=”BECOME ACTIVE!” style=”3d” color=”orange”]If you truly believe in the concept of PAX Nation, then embrace it. Become actively involved. Share about your personal projects. Become a resource. Use the resources that others offer. Let’s create an ACTIVE community for change. It can only be done with your help![/vc_cta][/vc_column_inner][/vc_row_inner][vc_row_inner][vc_column_inner width=”5/6″][vc_empty_space height=”16px”][vc_cta h2=”” style=”outline” add_button=”right” btn_title=”Write a blog post” btn_size=”xs” btn_align=”center” btn_i_icon_fontawesome=”fa fa-pencil” btn_add_icon=”true” btn_button_block=”true” btn_custom_onclick=”true”]Did you enjoy this? Do you want to share something similar? Write your own blog post![/vc_cta][/vc_column_inner][vc_column_inner width=”1/6″][vc_column_text]

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Help spread the word! It would be great if you added this image to your website (with a link to PAX Nation), someplace where it would be seen but not distract from the main focus of the site.  It would look great on social networking pages too!

The primary resource for PAX Nation is … and always WILL be … active participants. Without caring, INVOLVED people, this is is nothing more than a set of ideals mixed with some progressive ideas. Words and ideas have the power to MOTIVATE, but if not acted upon, they never become more than POTENTIAL. The types of skills needed will grow and evolve as the Nation does. Below is a list of some skill sets we currently could use:

• Blog writers

  All citizens can right blog posts. We need folk to share about their organizations, their communities, their expertise … anything they feel is worth sharing.

• Forum moderators

  Communications are one of the most important tools for cooperation. There are several opportunities for discussion, with the possibility for many more. Moderators will keep things moving and civil.

• Web Developers

  For the community to develop to its full potential, we need IT professionals who can maximize the web functionality.

• Entrepreneurs

  We need business savvy people to help get the backing and resources necessary for the nation to grow.

• Social Networking Gurus

  Social Networking is essential for an online community. With so many out there, we need people dedicated simply to spreading the word and interacting with the many networks.

• Webmasters

  This project will keep growing, most likely eventually becoming a network of sites. Management will require a conscientious team.

I until we establish funding sources and a functional internal economy, all positions will be voluntary. This will change as PAX Nation starts truly taking form.[

Another important resource is ideas. How can we improve the website? The whole plan? How can we help Pax Nation grow? What actions can we take? ANY ideas are worth looking at, and NONE are of any value if not shared.

As much as an ideal world will not be totally dependent on money … this is not yet an ideal world. If it were, PAX Nation would not be needed. Sadly money is a key to growth in our current world culture, and thus a resource that needs to be gathered. The Marketplace is intended to aid this need, but (at the moment anyway) we need other sources. Crowd funding and grants are options that need to be explored. Donations are also an option. If you have ANY resources that can help with funding, please CONTACT US!

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Apparently signing The Charter for Compassion was the snowflake I needed to start an avalanche. In the last four days, there have literally been as many visits to PAX Nation as in the ENTIRE YEAR until this point. Enough people have registered (and hopefully will continue to) to truly call this a community. I started this project in December of 2012, right after the Sandy Hook shooting. That event kind of tipped the scales with my general dissatisfaction of the course humanity was taking. The idea got a lot of thumbs up at first … with little other support beyond that. Despite the apparent lack of support, and due to my general stubbornness, I have kept at it, with a few extended interruptions (such as an attempt to hike the Appalachian Trail). In recent months, I decided to commit to it fully, and reworked the entire project. Apparently I have learned much of what I needed to learn, and found much of what I needed to find, because I seem to be on the right course finally!

WHAT’S NEW ON THE SITE?

The key to a successful online community is effective communication. Technically, the key to ANY community is effective communication. I have updated the Forum pages, adding some general topics that are issues that those who would change the world need to deal with. I encourage EVERYONE to join any conversation that interests you. Or start one on what is near and dear to you. For PAX Nation to be successful, first we need to start talking with each other!

If anyone wants to moderate or guide conversation, your help would be most welcome. Drop me a line, or post on my profile.

Cooperation is about sharing: sharing resources, sharing ideas, sharing goals. PAX Nation is all about creating a cooperative effort, removing many of the barriers that might prevent this from happening. Check out the slightly modified and expanded resource section. Maybe you want to use the Marketplace. Or learn about Partnership opportunities. If you, or someone you know has some skills to offer and time to spare, see what PAX Nation needs.

Working together is the key to advancing all of our causes. Take advantage. Don’t just be a name on a list!

SO WHAT’S NEXT?

For this idea to have any success, the Citizens need to be active.  Many of you have your own projects to put forward, which is exactly what PAX Nation is about. Here we can connect with like minded people who might have alternate goals, or come from other areas. If somebody needs what we offer, we can connect with them and do what we can to help. If you have needs that you cannot meet elsewhere, maybe they will be met here. But it will only work if we USE the site. Set up your profiles. I will add the capacity for making friends and adding photos and videos shortly. Write a blog post! Tell us about your specific projects, or teach us about your part of the world. And most importantly, TELL OTHERS about PAX Nation. For us to be a truly effective community; for us to actually become a presence in the world, requires that we continue to grow and evolve!

How far can we go?

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1302 Days. Three years, six months and twenty-four days. A mere moment in terms of human history … not even noticeable in terms of the lifetime of the earth, yet to mere mortals a momentous enough amount of time for significant change. I am the same person that had that idea … yet I am not. For nobody is the same from one moment to the next, and much has happened to me in those three and a half years.

I am still just an unspectacular person. I have not suddenly achieved celebrity. There still would be no reason anyone should know me unless our paths have crossed through our journeys in life. I am still just another ordinary person.

But my eyes still see, and my heart still beats. My core values have not changed. I continue to believe that we are all in this life journey TOGETHER. I continue to think that cooperation and complementing each other is the key to the survival of our species … our very planet … and not constant separation and conflict.

The way humanity keeps acting in recent years though, it still appears I am in the minority.

Greed and selfishness continue to be the driving force of humanity. Those who value material wealth over life itself retain control; we remain divided for all the wrong reasons, and it again seems to be getting worse. Of course it has only been three years, and there really is not reason to expect any grand changes to miraculously appear, for it is ultimately up to humanity itself to change things … if it truly WANTS to.

Self-deception continues to reign supreme, thanks to increased violence and advances in technology that make the spreading of hatred and misinformation easier and easier. Education and critical thinking are taking a back seat to propaganda and fear. Those with clear eyes and clear heads are rarely heard over the incessant bleating of the easily manipulated, and the howling of the predators that herd them.

Yet my idea remains.

My life in the last 1302 days has both increased my despair for humanity’s future, and increased my determination to help alter the direction of said future. Recently, the despair has been in control, causing me to lose faith in myself and humanity in general. As a result my crazy idea, along with several other related projects were left unattended. Even though I still  KNOW I am not the only person fed up with humanity’s reckless direction, I seem to be unable to find those others who think as I do. Feeling hopeless and, frankly, HELPLESS, I began giving up on … well … everything. I am existing instead of living, with little hope, let alone focus.

One thing I am, strength or weakness (or a bit of both) yet to be determined, is STUBBORN. My determination may wane, even disappear for a bit … but it ALWAYS returns.

My idea still may be insane. It remains to be seen if I have a chance of making something so out there happen. But one thing is clearer than ever. I neither have the resources nor the skills to do it alone. Even if the birth of an actual internet nation is beyond our reach, it is still possible to build an active community of like-minded individuals that are not defined by location or other arbitrary labels, but rather by a shared determination to bring humanity to a productive and healthy path. That is ultimately what this project is about, and what I have so far failed to do.

I have been surprised to find that despite my lack of activity in recent weeks, we continue to have those who seem to support it trickle in. This makes me believe that it truly CAN turn into something, even if it is still a remote possibility. But we need more than just the occasional like on a Facebook page. We need more than someone registering and then never doing anything else. For any chance at a community that can make a difference, we need active participants. We need others to share their own crazy ideas. We need to take these ideas to the next level, by ACTING on them. We need to share with each other, and find those others who would willing be part of a … MOVEMENT.

No idea will ever be more than just an idea without ACTION, and no single person can change much of anything ALONE. I do not wish this to be just another site that has a crazy man preaching his ideals, nor do I wish it to be yet another pointless social network. It is meant to be an active community, a gathering place of humans who believe in the value of life … humans that believe governments and economies serve humanity and not the other way around. PAX Nation is here to remove lines on maps and let ALL people unite in common goals, embracing our uniqueness as nothing more than an opportunity to grow.

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While I was away, this project, and most of the others I started, got tainted by the aforementioned human traits, ant this page specifically got damaged by hacking for the simple need to spam the world with garbage for the sake of profit. I have had to rebuild much of it from scratch (with still much to do), which in itself is not a bad thing. I have made changes to my initial plan, though the basic goal remains the same. I am still trying to build a community of “right” thinkers, hopefully to someday be a force for change in the world. So I have done some major changes to the site, some cosmetic, some hopefully functional. It is now a functional (if rudimentary) social network. There is a place for discussion, and some of the basic features of digital social interaction. We can create groups, and have friends. There is a rudimentary messaging system (though it seems to be having issues at the moment). In short, all the tools to start a community.

The only thing lacking is members.

So I once again am putting out the plea for help. If you find any merit at all in this crazy idea of mine, or simply want to find friends from all over who may have a similar level of awareness, join my site. I am simply one moderately skilled dreamer looking to make a difference. Imagine what could happen if my one became many, and my meager skills became a collection of masters. anything can happen if an idea … no matter how farfetched … has enough support and energy behind it. We have managed to make a mess of the world with some less than practical ideas as proof. So how about joining me in trying to shift humanity’s direction to something a little less self-destructive?

I am stubborn and will keep plodding on alone if I must … but it would be so much easier with a few other plodders at my side.

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Why am I bringing this up? Part of what makes me ME is that I wish to do nothing other than help improve the world around me. And the way I most successfully do that is by either helping OTHERS obtain their dreams, or by getting good projects started, which others eventually take over and make into something worthwhile. I am an idea mind, but I am not very detail oriented. That is really what PAX Nation is intended to be. A forum; a think tank in which those with unconventional ideas can gather together and maybe find actual SOLUTIONS for many of the world’s problems … partially by stepping OUTSIDE of previously designated boundaries. I never expected it to happen overnight. And I KNOW I am NOT the person to do such great deeds, even if I might be a good spark to ignite others.

It has become more and more apparent to me that IF this idea has merit … it is not the time for it yet. Right now we are again fighting for basic net neutrality, which is a NECESSITY for PAX Nation to have ANY hope of growth. But beyond that, I have not really managed to get much more than a passing interest in the project over the course of months. I have opened it up to allow any to contribute ideas that wish to; I have tried to make it into a rudimentary social site … both with little success. It is my failing of course, because I have not really succeeded in obtaining even minimal help on the project. Most of the “contributions” have been simply spammers and scammer who love to do nothing other than use openness as a source to inundate the public with more garbage in the pursuit of profit. Fortunately I got wise to this early on and changed things so that they can’t automatically post without approval (unless given that permission.)

None of this really matters though. I am not writing this as a bid for attention or another plea. I just wanted to let any who actually find some value know that the site will basically be on hiatus while I am involved with the hike. I will be leaving at the end of March, and it will take approximately 6 months. Which basically means this project will go on the shelf for most of that time. I might occasionally step in, and I will probably post a few more times before I leave. But other than that, this idea is getting top shelved for a while. Unless anyone thinks it is worth keeping it alive and wants to take it on some management of the project (if so, feel free to contact me). I will mostly just be blogging on the Hiking Blog, so all of the other blogs will pretty much be on hold as well. If anyone has any interest in following my adventure (or even participating on any level), I welcome them. I will have this blog automatically follow that one, or people can visit the other blog directly.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][vc_column width=”1/12″][/vc_column][/vc_row]

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However, for many, this time of year is one where the concept of change is not so scary. It is traditionally held to be time for new beginnings, and change is more easy to swallow when we know many will participate WITH us. So we make resolutions; promises to ourselves on how we will make our life better in the future. And we will start with pure intent and full energy … at first. But after a few weeks (if even THAT long) many of us find ourselves slipping back to the comfort zone. The result being nothing really changes. And in twelve months, we try again.

Being comfortable with our lives is not in itself a bad thing. Ultimately it is what we ALL seek. But if that comfort is at the expense of others, and we WILLINGLY do not choose to acknowledge this … that is when we need to take a good look at ourselves. Worse yet, when we create justifications for choosing to ignore that which should not be ignored, what does that say about us? Some say ignorance is bliss. The primary reason for the accuracy of this statement is that ignorance often allows us to hide from unpleasant truths. We might be able to forgive ignorance from a lack of proper tools to understand. But when the ignorance is WILLFUL … is that truly forgivable?

So how do we avoid repeating the same mistake? A few suggestions:

• Stop turning the world into US and THEM. Generalizations are simply good excuses for bad behavior. Just because one person acts a certain way does not mean ALL similar people will act in the same way. That is no reason to ignore that which we do not like about the situations of other.
• “It is not my problem!” is NEVER an acceptable answer for anything. If we can perceive that a problem exists, then it becomes our problem at that very moment.

I said “Somebody should do something about that.” Then I realized I am somebody.

• Imagine ourselves in the same situation as others. Empathy is KEY to change for the better. That goes along with the whole US and THEM concept. There must be something wrong with THEM … why should I help? Try imagining how our life would be in their situation. It’s all well and good to say, “I would never do THAT!” when we have never faced the difficulties those who have done THAT have faced.
• Remember that we are just one of billions. Our needs are not more important than anyone else’s … simply because we have decided they are. That kind of thinking is nothing more than selfishness. If this is the way we choose to be, so be it. But stop claiming some moral superiority based on that choice. All such choices guarantee is that NOTHING will ever really change.

Resolutions are meaningless unless we commit to them wholeheartedly. And maybe the ones we don’t manage to commit to fail because we KNOW in our hearts that they are ultimately pointless. Try something new. If we truly want the world to change even just a little, think long and hard on what it is we will be changing … and at whose expense. If we think all is just fine as it is, why make a resolution at all? But be prepared to have a lot of discomfort of the soul with this choice. For it will soon become evident that much is NOT just fine as it is.

TRUE CHANGE MEANS RISKING DISCOMFORT. WILL YOU TAKE THE RISK?

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Obviously this will be no easy thing to achieve. Many may not even understand the concept, or believe it can ever happen. But I am never one to do things the easy way. I started with the idea, and then created the basic webpage … in other words I planted a seed. And while it is by no means dying, it is not prospering either. But such grand plans (doable or not) require patience. And persistence. So I keep plugging along.

As I was pursuing another project, I encountered some useful tools that would benefit the growth of PAX Nation, and I have begun implementing them. While we are still far from an actual COMMUNITY, we are now more than just a website / blog. We have now entered the realm of Social Network. I have begun adding the capacity to create our own profiles, create friends lists, message each other, and have discussions via a forum. Granted it is a very rudimentary social network right now, and I am still trying to figure out how to make certain thins work, but the planted seed has definitely begun sprouting.

However, I am still lacking in one thing. Community members. I have roughly 1600 followers of the FB page for PAX Nation, which is nothing to complain about, but it also essentially means nothing too. The number of those people who actually pay attention to activity on the Nation let alone get involved is very small. As for registered members to the Nation (Citizens), we have about 30, and a number of those may not be real people. It’s a start … but a slow one. So I am once again asking for participation, especially now that there is a way that we can actively interact. Become a citizen today! Anyone can read and comment on posts, as well as read forum discussion. But if you wish to be able to actually participate in discussion, or even post blog posts, then you must be a registered citizen. Initially, blog posts need to be approved before they get posted (to ensure they are not spam and that people know what they are doing) but eventually that restriction will be removed. There are no restriction on forum usage (other than the mandatory need for RESPECT). So what do you say? Help me make this community a TRUE community. Not only do I ask that you sign up, but tell any friends who might find the ideal worthwhile as well!

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And that is precisely why I have been quiet.

I have once again been wrestling with the concept of “Why bother?” What is the point of sharing words with the intent of getting people to think; to react; to maybe even start something, when to all appearances people are simply NOT interested. More and more it seems that if something is not attached to an emotionally laden picture, with constantly reused words of wisdom or reactionary phrases, then people don’t think it is worth worth paying attention too. Something that does not expound on “known” facts, throwing statistics around to prove an agenda, but rather asks people to think for themselves, is for the most part not welcome. So why bother writing such pieces?

People will believe what they want to believe. They hear what they want to hear, see what they want to see. Education does not really matter, it happens with the well-educated as often as the poorly educated. Attempts to convince people of opposing points of view only work if the are willing to recognize an opposing point of view. It only works if they already doubt. On top of that, why should I think that what I have to say has any more value than anyone else?

I created PAX Nation to be a community, and I still have hopes of it becoming one. But I am starting to wonder if I am the one to make such a community happen. I express ideas, and at most I get is people telling me how I am a naive, idealistic fool. I never seem to inspire anything other than criticism. So this tells me that either I AM a naive, idealistic fool, or if my ideas have any merit, no one is really ready for them yet. So maybe I should give up even trying. After all even the loudest shout goes unheard if no one is listening.

The simple answer is this. NO idea will ever succeed if it is not even shared. Any idea, no matter how foolish some might find it, is as good as silence if kept locked in one’s mind. So I will continue to share my ideas, welcome or not. I will continue to urge others to think for themselves; to question; to push their own limits, and embrace change if they see the need for it. I will keep the borders open on this borderless nation, and hope that maybe someday others will see value in such a community. And maybe decide to help it grow.

I make no claim to superior wisdom. I certainly have a lot less knowledge than many. Though I often recognize when things are broken, I don’t always know how to fix them. My strength is in my ability to shift perspectives … in finding alternatives when one idea does not work. Sometimes this is just recognizing the merit in someone else’s ideas. PAX Nation is the soil to plant new ideas. There are many things that can change in the world, and we too often hold onto failing methods instead of starting with fresh ideas. Maybe now is not the time for newness, but the tools are there for anyone who wants to explore the world of possibility.

So I will continue to shout … to howl into the wind. Maybe others will hear me. Maybe others will even join me. Maybe not. But if I stop than NOTHING is all I can ever expect.

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