" My body is not me, it is mine. My mind is not me, it is mine. My emotions are not me, they are mine. My spirit on the other hand …"
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What does it mean to be healthy? Some people define health by having a fit and functional body, and that is the end of it. For me health encompasses all aspects of what makes up this entity referred to as “ME”. When I am healthy, all those aspects are both working well in their own right and playing well together. When any aspect of ME is out of balance, then the whole system is off, and I am not fully healthy at that moment. Life is ultimately a constant struggle to maintain this balance, often with an emphasis on “struggle”. This blog is essentially an on and off diary of my personal struggle. Maybe others can find some value in what I share, even if only a bit of entertainment (I am sure my challenges will be downright laughable at times).
Some of my posts will focus on specific aspects of ME, others will be more general. Below you will see all posts to date. Seek out posts on more specific aspects by choosing Body, Mind, or Sprit to the left.

A wise woman
The last couple weeks have been downright enlightening for me.
Let me back up even more. I have been struggling (again?) for a while now. Nothing new to someone who has way to much time on their hands to simply think. My current (constant?) dilemma is finding (creating?) a meaning...


The answer has always eluded me.
Am I the me others perceive based on their own experiences and expectations?
But I am also other.
Step back; forget what was; let go of expectation.
Be the observer.
Ask again.
Who am I?
I caught myself smiling for no reason...




That particular concept means nothing to me. I never thought of January 1st as being the beginning of anything other than an arbitrary month in a calendar made by man. To me the new year does not start...


“Huh?” is not an unreasonable response.
Just do it. Don’t worry about art. Get yourself a piece of paper (which itself might be a challenge for some in this digital age) and draw yourself a rabbit hole. Make it big enough to put some words in.
Done? Great. Look at your rabbit hole and...


A few days ago my morning started as it always does. I woke up because for various reasons my body decided it was time to wake up. On this particular morning my reaction to waking up was one...






A. R. Rahman
Everybody has an opinion to offer ...
Whether a decision is potentially life altering, or as simple as what one's favorite color is, everyone has an answer for you. And all to often, they...


A weary old stranger. "Who are you, you're not me?!"
I looked once again, expecting to find,
The me I remember; the me in my mind.
The reflection just stared back, tired and worn,
A face shaped by sorrow, sad and forlorn.
"Something is wrong here. This is not right!
This stranger...


EVERYTHING changes.
The hows and what's of the change will be...






I have not...






This is not a cry for help. Nor an exhortation of pathos or extreme depression.
It is an epiphany.
I have understood this academically for most of my life. But recently ... and I am not sure why ... it could be something I ate ... recently I truly came to UNDERSTAND this idea. Most...


Not bad. Not bad at all! ⇐ me
The above exchange is a very common one for me. While the words may not be exactly the same, many other people will greet each other similarly, probably several times throughout the day. It's a pleasant enough bit of wordplay, one that we all...












If you are here on this...










This is true.
Basically, any type of self-improvement is first and foremost a mental challenge. Stripped down to the basics, humans are ultimately a combination of habits and perceptions. How we perceive ourselves will determine the habits we develop, and thus how we live our lives. So...


